Last year my word for the year was "Enchantment." I wanted to be enchanting, and I wanted to be enchanted. The year actually took an interesting turn, and hindsight leads me to believe that my actual word for the year was disenchantment.
Don't get me wrong I had many amazing experiences and memories. I did some pretty enchanting stuff with secret missions and teaching kids about kindness. I started yoga teacher training. {This feels like such an internal game changer for me--wow! I am enchanted!} I have been blessed with so many joyful and hilarious memories with Sam.
I've also witnessed some Truth that I really didn't want to look at--about myself and some relationships I have. I've been working through some really hard decisions. I feel disenchanted. Some of my innocence bubbles have burst. Ironically I think all of that is leading me toward the life and work that I will find enchanting, but it doesn't feel that way now.
I'm experiencing a radical internal paradigm shift. I told a friend that I know I'm going to be fantastic when I get to the other side, but I'm just now there yet.
All that to say, I've been pretty quiet here and at Brave Teachers for the past couple of months. I've been putting on my own oxygen mask and sitting with change, because now I do want to enchant you with the gifts I have been unearthing. There is so much brewing! Stay tuned. . .
Happy New Year!
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